PrimaDonna Girl

18.02.16 update: OMG thanks to whoever who purchased my photographic work!! I wish I could thank them personally but DA keeps purchasers anonymous. THANK YOU SO MUCH TO WHOEVER YOU ARE, you've just returned my faith in my work. I shall keep posting more.


I think is a copying mechanism I developed at some point in my life... and today listening to this song I said "Oh my gosh... sounds familiar!!" What I've read is that most hollywood stars were severly bullied too... so I guess that's why you find many of those feeling like that... hence the need to be adored and successful to show them we were worth it. The harder the struggle the greater the glory they say.

This song explains a lot to my own self... I'm living the life as if I were in a dream, yeps always felt that way, feels sad sometimes that you want to be present and feel things and experience them as the joy they should be but I just can't feel anything, is like some areas of my life I had numbed.... but ohhh feels so good at times to get all you ask for!!  Though trying now to work my hardest real hard to earn an income for myself, I want to become economically independent. 

I don't think my ego is as big as the described on the song, but definitely hubby can count on me to misbehave. The fact that I have so many traits of primmadonna girl shocks the really humble person in me, the one that got bullied precisely for not believing she was worth anything... so I try to make sure she doesn't get bloody conceited, because all my life I've been trying to keep things kind of private and discrete....but I'm getting ever so fed up of fighting against whatever that is inside that wants to get out... I always knew I had more than one sharing space in my head... this one I guess it's just one of them... and it's only usually my attitude with men.... Most songs of that album of Marina pretty much describes them all. Which is sad to know there are many women out there feeling her lyrics.